I am not at a good place with my diet and exercise. I’m at a feeling-sorry-for-myself kinda place. My son has been sick more than he has been well for the past 2 months (including 2 ER visits and a 2-day hospital stay for febrile seizures), my husband has been working away more than he has been home, my foot hurts, my knees hurt, my boss wants me to change over to an independent contractor, I haven’t written on my blog for over 2 weeks. All these things have been weighing on my heart and on my mind. The 6 or 8 (I lost count) cheesecake cupcakes I ate throughout the day today made me feel better….for about 5 minutes…and now I feel terrible. I KNOW that I have no excuse for eating unhealthy and being a couch potato, but all this stuff going on is just getting me down. I need to do something to get out of my funk.
So, step 1 is to make a plan. Before writing this post, I started making a food journal for tomorrow, filling it up with nutritious food. I need and want to get back to my “glory days” when I was eating what I was supposed to every day and exercising regularly and feeling really good about myself. I lost 20 pounds in that month and a half (back in November/December 2011). I’ve spent all of 2012 fooling around – losing 5 pounds, gaining 6, losing 1, gaining 1. I’ve managed to maintain my initial loss, but I’m certainly going nowhere fast. So it’s time to really try again…and try hard.
Step 2 is to follow that plan. That's where I always seem to fail.
There's a good chance that you're rolling your eyes and shaking your head at me. I don’t blame you. I’ve written a couple of posts just like this one before. Believe me when I say I know that I’m a diet-flake and I do know what I need to do to be successful, I just don’t do what I’m supposed to for whatever reason. All I can do is make a promise to myself – and to you – that I will try really hard to do better. And I’m going to round up all the people in my life that love me and ask them to give me their full-on support in my journey to a healthier me because I need it – for my baby boy, my future child, my husband and for my own longevity and quality of life. I need all the help and encouragement I can get.
Thank you for reading…I really do want to show myself and all of you that I CAN do this. So here I go…again. My goal is for progress, not perfection. (Thank you Sarah Beth for sharing that concept with me a few months ago).