I know I haven't written a post since August and I'm feeling pretty bad about it. I've been having trouble making the time to write, but my weight loss clinic counselor urged me to try harder. So here I am...cheerfully.
The last couple of months brought quite a bit of turmoil in my life. My husband was out of town (except for some weekends) for most of the summer and it was pretty hard on all of us. My son got very sick at the beginning of September and was in the hospital for a few days. We were out of town for 3 weeks towards the end of September and I proceeded to gain 9 pounds. During the 3 weeks away, I got some bad news from my employer, which led to some highly emotional eating. They had to cut my pay and my benefits in order to keep me on. So now I'm an independent contractor (some people have told me that being my own boss may be a blessing, but I haven't been able to see it as that yet, hopefully soon).
Things have calmed down quite a bit and I've finally come to terms with my job situation and am looking forward to taking on new graphic design clients and seeing where things go. Anybody wanna hire me? :)
I've been able to lose 5 of the 9 pounds I gained while I was away from home and I'm feeling great about that. I'm trying to get back into regular exercise by waking up early and jumping on the treadmill. The early mornings are the only time that I can actually seem to get my workouts done. When I get more acclimated to my routine, I'll add strength training to that. I was having trouble with my foot and my knees, but things seem to be getting better, at least for now.
I saw my doctor yesterday for some wrist pain (from picking up my 30lb little boy) and talked to her about taking Metformin for my PCOS to level out my blood sugar and possibly assist in weight loss, which is painfully slow, even when I've been giving it 100%. She agreed that it might be helpful so I took my first dose last night. So far no big side effects, so I'll keep my fingers crossed that it stays that way.
My counselor and I also talked about the fact that I KNOW exactly what I need to do to lose weight but something inside my crazy brain is crippling my efforts. I've mentioned this before. In other words, my biggest problem is in my head. The trick will be to work on my mental endurance...making better food and exercise choices and making the little "food devil" that sits on my shoulder go away for good. I'm pretty sure a lot of you know what I'm talking about. Losing weight is as much an emotional journey as a physical one. I need to continue to take steps to make my lifestyle healthier while keeping it enjoyable.
So there you have it. I've been going through a rough patch, but I'm getting things under control. I'm certainly not quitting...that's not even an option! I'm just trying to keep my life in balance - trying to do my best at my work, at being a wife and mother and learning to make healthier choices while I'm at it :) Maybe some day people will look at me and say "how does she do it?"...haha, I can dream can't I?
If you have any comments, advice or just want to say hi, I'd love to hear from you.
Glad to be back!